How to die?
I looked it up
I never wanted to
I just needed to know
How does one die?
What happens?
Do they feel it?
What does it look like?
You see, as a kid Billy
My good friend from tae kwon do
Died in a car crash
So I looked it up
I felt something momentarily back then
But never got the full effect as a kid
Of death
Then my grandfather, in Mexico
Passed away at 83 in his sleep
I still remember my older cousins
Sobbing uncontrollably, hands trembling
I was too young to understand
So I looked it up
It happened
Again, again and again
How to die?
No, I wasn’t going to do it
I just wanted to know
I wanted to feel grief
I wanted to mourn
It has been my greatest fear
How to die
How I’m going to die
Dying
Death
So I looked it up
So I could understand it
Study it, internalize it
To conquer that fear
When I was little
It was all around me
I just didn’t see it
Right in front of me
I just didn’t feel it
Then in high school
Jeanna had leukemia
And Beth in Bryan
Died of cancer
And last year, Tucker
Couldn’t beat it either
So I looked it up
What else am I missing?
How is this not dying?